Especially when it seems like they know something about you that you don't. Recently a problem arose among my little friend group, which through my overly-logical eyes, seemed like it was barely a problem at all, just something that needed to be brought up briefly and then we would all be like, "oh, okay!". And to be honest that's what I thought happened but then it was like someone pressed a button and now half of the friend group is ignoring me and my girlfriend.
I'm not going to go into detail about the whole issue because this isn't about the issue itself.
My brain has a fun time making up little stories, especially bad ones about bad things that could happen. It's not usually a problem for me, but to be honest this situation is freaking me out. one little thing, and now my own sister is mad at me, my other friends are ignoring me too, and I'm just thinking... they HAVE to know something I don't. this makes no sense. why are all these people having the same unjustifiedly strong negative reaction to this little problem that would have been over and done with had there just been a touch more communication.
Now it's as if communication is some alien concept, half of my friends literally won't say a word to me, not even just to spare me the frustration of trying to figure out why in the hell they are mad at me.
Just to add fuel to the fire, a friend from a different offshoot of this friend group (it's hard to explain) was texting me as they do once in a blue moon, and decides to throw in a little "by the way, we still love you, you're still welcome to hang out with us."
To be honest, this message didn't seem out of the ordinary at first glance, since I have not been around that side of the freind group much at all, but then my brain got to work with it's red string and thumb tacks and was like, "okay, so everyone seems to think that I have done something awful." which when you think about it, i don't think it's completely unreasonable to come to that conclusion.
And what is one to do when having come to this conclusion?.... yeah, i don't know either. which is why I am writing about it and posting it online for all who care to see. (which is not a lot, I assume maybe one person will even get this far... not even. I'm most definitely alone here.) ANyway, I feel a little bit silly for being concerned about this, like I'm just paranoid or something, but I seriously just don't understand. Why are there several people acting confusingly all at once? this is unacceptable!
well, in case any strange people do decide to read this far, sorry that this is so personal and about something that few can probably relate to, I'm sure it was a blast to read through. BUT this is MY website and I can write whatever I want AND I can delete it later too. Maybe I won't. I am unsure. But if I am going to continue to write these "blog posts" as I call them, they are probably going to be mostly like this. Just me writing about what I'm thinking about. So there. Maybe I'll make a nice little page for these little random writings to go. but for now it'S just this. okay bye!