Hello hello, i am back again. I really wish i could be more consistent with my website but I just have so many other things to pay attention to. I also really should not be writing for long because it's currently 1:38AM and i need to get up at like 6:30 or something because I have a class at 8:30. Yeah, it's the first week of my second term of art school, and the winter break was actually quite nice, and gave me lots of time to just take a deep breath and focus on some fun stuff. It's very much a back-and-forth with school for me, I'm grateful to have long breaks, and then I'm grateful to get back into it at the start of the next term.
I've got a decision to make, though, pretty soon, because I am currently registered for five courses, and I learned last term that five is too many, so I'm going to drop one, but I just... don't know which one. going into this week I thought it'd be art history, since I think I failed the first part of that course last term, so I figured i could drop the second part, and just do them both next year. But I went to art history today, and it's actually got me excited for the course, looking over the introduction and the assignments I'll have to do. My other option for a class to drop would be math in art, mostly because that course is not a prerequisite for any others that I might want to take next year. And plus, then I would only have one class where I have to read a textbook. I don't read textbooks. But I'm gonna have to at some point so I should probably change my attitude about it.
I swear school is not the only thing i talk and think about, I just happen to have it on my mind when I'm writing about what's going on in my life, because it kinda is the main thing that I am doing. Over the break I did a LOT of art just for myself, for fun, which was very VERY refreshing after the end of last term where I was sooo burnt out I could barely even do my school work, let alone anything leisurely. But yeah I have been getting so into furry art, drawing my fursona, Sweetheart, as well as fanart of furry musicians (stomach book and 4lung), and just lots of original stuff, doodling, drawing lil doggos, maybe I'll get pictures of all that artwork up on my art page but not right now because I'm supposed to be sleeping.
I've been so hyperfixated (for lack of a better word - I don't have ADHD or autism) on stomach book and 4lung, and also femtanyl and a few other furry/hyperpop/breakcore artists and my playlist of that genre is basically all I have been listening to since like mid december. Particularly GOODNIGHT HYPNOPOMP and The New 4lung Album, both of which are on the playlist in their entirety. Just absolutely obsessed, cannot stop putting them on repeat, I love the high pitched vocals of stomach book and the kind of chill hip-hoppy (maybe? i might be wrong bc I don't have a good feel for hip hop and what specific sounds it has) vibes of 4lung, and I love the way femtanyl's songs scratch the inside of my brain.
I keep thingking about how I had my little closeted furry phase back in like 2024, but I just did not have the right people surrounding me for that interest to thrive, so i kinda went from "wait I'm a furry?" to "Listen, I'm not a furry, but they are definitely overhated and I love furries" and it's like no, you're just in denial because you are in high school and openly being a furry in high school is practically a death wish. But I am happy to say now that I am most definitely a furry and it has given me the MOST art inspiration like. ever. I just can't stop drawing my fursona and making up new fursonas and drawing my little doggos that i express emotion through in my art and it just makes being creative SO EASY! Like, why did I not let myself be a furry sooner?
So yeah, anyway, it's now a goal of mine to make a fursuit this summer, and listen, I would do it now, but I just do not see a possible universe where I can give myself enough creative free time during school to take on a project that big. BUT when I do start it, I should totally make a step-by-step process thingy to post here on my website!! wouldn't that be cool? (I'm going to forget)
Ummmm outro, conclusion to this life update post, i dont have any more brain power to end my writing properly so byeeee :)